Bush said it well... Everything Zen (Unfinished)

This is a post I started back in Novemember 2010! I had a wonderful idea one night. Starting typing, got sidetracked....Like I often do....and the next day I had no clue where I was going with it! I have glanced at it every couple of months....still no clue. So here is the unfinished ramblings by yours truley! (maybe one of you all can figure it out!!)


"If you know the song, you know that Everything Zen is posed like a question.... and I for one can say that at the moment....everything is not Zen.

I love my family...with everything I have and everything I am. I just wish that....I could feel just a little of that in return.

I know that it is normal for a child to not appreciate everything their mother does for them."

Catching up!!

I know it has been awhile since I posted anything! You would think with all my issues and me not working at the moment I would have more time.

I just thought you all should know......I am working on several different posts. It's just hard to find the time to finish them!!

If I can get my computer to cooperate and upload my pics!! I will hopefully have one post ready this afternoon/evening!!!

Hope all is well with everyone!! I have lots of news to share!!!

Who....no...really

My hubs seems to think he has some sort of connection...with a famous person.  One who I will not mention by name...

He is currently sitting here streaming on Ustream,....or whatever it's called.

Guess what he's streaming...you guessed it....my boobs....

I know he's proud of them and all but seriously....can't you find something better!!

I love him anyways!

Karma...what?

I just don't get it. I spend 40% +/- of my time helping people. I'm a nurse and I love my job. I don't take a lot of time off. I actually like going to work...most days!

So the week I started planning in October... has turned into me being injured and sick... I just don't get it.

First I find out that I can't have all my time off (this was several weeks ago)...then I hurt myself and end up with sciatica going on week number 6. On my second day off, I developed a runny nose and it has been downhill from there.

All I wanted was a break, some time to spend with my family and maybe actually clean my house. I will still try to do the best I can, but lets face it...my motivation is out the window!

Pity Party Table of One

I'm having one of those days, you know what I'm talking about.

I just feel so alone sometimes. I know I'm not. I know there are many people out there who care about me. I know that I'm lucky to have married my best friend.

I just feel like I'm the one one who gets stuck doing most of the work.

I try to talk about it, but it doesn't always go over well. I think, he thinks I'm trying to put him down. I'm not, I don't want him to feel that way, but I would like him to try and understand how I feel.

I'm a very empathetic person. It is one of the many things that turned me to nursing. I always try to consider others feelings. Sometimes I do this too much. He always tells me not to get so close to my patients, but they are a part of me. They touch me, often in ways I never thought they could. My empathetic self tends to hurt me at home though. I seem to think that because I voice my feelings everyone else should understand them....but they don't....then I get upset.

I don't know what to do about this....I'm trying to handle it on a day by day basis, some days are better than others.

There is so much more I want to say, but I feel like now isn't the time. Pieces.....I will discuss in pieces..

PS: I do not like blogging on the laptop....I keep mis typing, my fingers are too short and stubby!!!

Music...Life...One and the Same

I have posted before how much music means to me. I know I'm not the only one.

All songs mean something to me.

I had a talk with Taylor over dinner tonight. She was telling me how much she likes that Bruno Marrs song Grenade...

I asked her if she understood it... she doesn't know how to listen....I mean really listen to the words.

So I told her I would teach her... Music is too important to me for my kids not to understand why.

My whole mood can be altered by what I'm listening to. I am very well rounded in music and I would like my kids to be too!!

She told me it can be her 'summer school' ...She really does want to learn!

Tomorrow...well later today!!!

I have been reading...around the internet.

There are many interesting things going on...

One in particular has given me an idea....

I need sleep and a clearer mind to go into detail....


So I will...In several hours....

I hope everyone has a great night sleep....or good morning depending on where your located.

I will be back...I will give more details...