Who....no...really

My hubs seems to think he has some sort of connection...with a famous person.  One who I will not mention by name...

He is currently sitting here streaming on Ustream,....or whatever it's called.

Guess what he's streaming...you guessed it....my boobs....

I know he's proud of them and all but seriously....can't you find something better!!

I love him anyways!

Karma...what?

I just don't get it. I spend 40% +/- of my time helping people. I'm a nurse and I love my job. I don't take a lot of time off. I actually like going to work...most days!

So the week I started planning in October... has turned into me being injured and sick... I just don't get it.

First I find out that I can't have all my time off (this was several weeks ago)...then I hurt myself and end up with sciatica going on week number 6. On my second day off, I developed a runny nose and it has been downhill from there.

All I wanted was a break, some time to spend with my family and maybe actually clean my house. I will still try to do the best I can, but lets face it...my motivation is out the window!

Pity Party Table of One

I'm having one of those days, you know what I'm talking about.

I just feel so alone sometimes. I know I'm not. I know there are many people out there who care about me. I know that I'm lucky to have married my best friend.

I just feel like I'm the one one who gets stuck doing most of the work.

I try to talk about it, but it doesn't always go over well. I think, he thinks I'm trying to put him down. I'm not, I don't want him to feel that way, but I would like him to try and understand how I feel.

I'm a very empathetic person. It is one of the many things that turned me to nursing. I always try to consider others feelings. Sometimes I do this too much. He always tells me not to get so close to my patients, but they are a part of me. They touch me, often in ways I never thought they could. My empathetic self tends to hurt me at home though. I seem to think that because I voice my feelings everyone else should understand them....but they don't....then I get upset.

I don't know what to do about this....I'm trying to handle it on a day by day basis, some days are better than others.

There is so much more I want to say, but I feel like now isn't the time. Pieces.....I will discuss in pieces..

PS: I do not like blogging on the laptop....I keep mis typing, my fingers are too short and stubby!!!